As of the past few months I’ve been having a lot of issues and problems, to name a few I’ve gone sick twice, one time of which I had Hepatitis A, I’ve acquired a substantial amount of debts, and the most recent my own sister requested I leave her appartment rendering me, practically, but not quite, homeless.
All these things, at first, weighed heavily on my shoulders. Keeping sanity at the idea of hard work and getting back up on my feet to resolve, if not all, but at least few of those “tragic” little events.
Well, things have been working out little by little. My company’s starting to generate income so the debts have been dissolving, slowly yet steadily. As well, I was able to recover my health as soon as I was able to pay for my medical expenses (who would’ve thought, lol). And my sister, well, she’s got her own issues and I’ve got to admit I’ve been unable to comply to her needs because of working to supply my own.
The thing is, problems have been piling up one after another, but really I’ve gotta say I somewhat enjoy this. I feel alive!
And don’t get me wrong, I’m not a masochist dude who enjoys getting beaten up by life; au contraiere!
The real thrive behind it all for me is the feeling I get every time I solve some new inconvenience. I feel alive because my day by day goes faster and I don’t feel like I’m doing nothing. I’m working, sweating, worrying, moping, laughing, solving and busting my head to tear appart every little aspect of what makes the world move rightwards.
I’ve come to realize we’re all a dream, a concept being represented by our conciousness as something real. And no I’m not in denial, just bear with me here. No matter how many problems I have I won’t die because of them. The worst that could happen is I lose everything and then I get to work my way back up to having something again. Daily minutia is intangible, unreal. If I day today the world will still be in place. Feelings aknowledge my own existance. Once I solve my problems I’ll feel good and proud that I was able to overcome my difficulties. Life is full of bumps and valleys along the path and that’s what makes it so interesting.
What I’m saying is, life’s a puzzle, an obstacle track, a contest for survival, simply put, life is fun, and I’m glad I’m living it.
